The Diary Of A Teenage Tragedy

I've been watching really sappy chick flicks recently and idk what provoked me to do this but i decided to watch brokeback mountain. (i think it had something to do with the fact that my grandma thought it was "squirmy" and i didn't get what she was talking about completely) And it is a pretty great film. I know it's an oldish movie and that people were hating on it and if you've seen it you'll probably get why but i think it takes an extremely strong person to be gay and to accept that you're falling for a member of the same sex must be crazy scary. i mean in our society that's "against human nature" (pshh err). Imagine yourself in the position that those guys from brokeback mountain were in... (i don't care if the storys not real or whatever)... that's 2 straight men "falling in love" and acknowledging that there's no way out of it and that they'll always be in love. Think of how much they would have to love each other. I'm a straight 14 year old female and i have yet to meet that special someone so I've never been in love. (I've loved plenty of people but I've never been in love) But i cannot imagine loving someone that much and then going against all you've ever learned to be with that person i think it's crazy. I hope someday i can meet someone that loves me as much as those guys love each other (i think I'd like a guy though... no girls for me.) This is written really badly i just went back and read it and it really has no point but my heart literally hurts from that movie. It's better then the titanic for me because when you see titanic they were on that boat for 2 days and then boom they were in love. These brokeback mountain guys were out in the middle of nowhere for 2 to 5 months or however long it was maybe I'm completely wrong but then they didn't see each other for 4 years and after 4 years they still love each other... i don't know it's just crazy. Also i love love love the casting in that movie i love all the wispering that only real nerds like me can catch... (when ennis sighs into jacks shirt near the end and when ennis goes into the tents (their first kiss) if you're a big brokeback mountain nerd and haven't caught that go watch it turn it up real loud i think it's real cute!) i don't know there's no point to this i just wanted to talk aboutthis to some..thing... so anyway i'm going to bed.